Wednesday, April 27, 2011 | 8:21 PM

Believing your kindness is like believing Macdonald's is a health food.

Watching you act cute is like watching your dog eating its own poop.

You annoying piece of sh*t.

I hate what you do and I hate your whole crew

Wednesday, March 2, 2011 | 9:57 PM

Our Love Story

22nd April 2010;
The first day we saw each other.
You're interested in me, I know, I can feel it.
Your hair is so long, I was joking to my friend that you are a girl.

A few days later you added me in Facebook.
You asked if I was from your sec school cos I know a friend from your sec school.
I said no and we began chatting.
Mum ask me to shutdown my com, i thought it would be rude to just say gtg.
I left my no. and told u to sms me if there's anything.
Then on, we started chatting thru sms.
Feelings multiply as fast as any love can be.
I remembered it was Thursday, we asked each other about catching the movie date night tgt.
Honestly I wanted you to talk to me, but we're both too shy to make a move.
My friends saw your Facebook and told me you're cute.
They began to tease me when they saw your face appearing in my message and called you.
It was funny cos I din't know you could tease them back too.
From that moment I just felt like everything was so nice :)

24th April 2010;
We met up for the movie.
I remembered me having a hard time picking on which clothes to wear.
We met at Hougang Mall before going The cathay for the movie.
I remembered how awkward it is, you wearing casual and me wearing rather formal :)
I bought my monster trucker hat from Hougang and we proceeded.
I remembered you not talking much. You must be really shy.
We headed to Starbucks to wait for our movie time while sipping our coffee.
There's something bout us, it just seems like we've known each other for a very long time.
I remembered that you keep looking at your Iphone instead of me, I was like thinking... Ahyo why this guy keep using his phone when he's with me! Bad boy, gonna change this bad habit of his! *hehehe*
Perhaps you're just shy
The movie was hilarious. I kissed you on the lips and you're surprised.
How cute :)

As the days went on, we became unbreakable.
We see each other almost everyday Without getting bored of each other.
I was happy. I always wanted a guy who wishes to see me everyday and I could be with him almost everyday.
I mean this is every girls dream, i supposed.

1 monthsary, I gave you a mouse, which you wanted so much.
You were surprised. I hope you're happy, well i guess so.
You're cute, you made me a love letter.
Although it was simple but I love it so much. Kinda touched.
Afterwards we began to give each other monthsary presents.
We found out that giving presents months and months not only makes us both run out of cash, but also ideas.
We agreed that after 1 year we will buy anniversary presents instead. :) How cute we used to be.

We began to quarrel a little over some small stuffs.
Maybe cos my expectations for you was too high.
You're different, thats how I used to not know.

After all the counting months, all the small quarrels din't meant any much to us already.
This seems good as we do not quarrel as much.
But when we quarrel, it will be a big fight.

Even though of every fights, whether its my wrong or right, we both will always be soft-hearted and be as loving again.
That is because we know we cant live without each other's existance.
This is love, and we're truly madly deeply in love with each other.
Slowly I din't even think bout me changing your flaws, but just truly hope you'll change for me.
I don't mind doing extra work for you.
I even forgave you time to time after our huge fight. I just want to love you and be happy tgt with you
I know you love me and felt the same way too.
We're just different from other couples. We're just different and our love is so strong.

More and more bad things happen. Perhaps we're not destined to meet and be tgt.
Each time I said I wanna go, but I couldn't make myself leave that door.
Each time I will be soft-hearted again and forgive you.

2nd March 2010, Wednesday

This time I really have to go.
I know you don't mean to hurt me, but it must come to an end.
I know its hard to say goodbye when it comes to this.
Memories are the ones which are haunting us.
But i know we'll gonna make it thru someday.

Malau, I loved you.
Thanks for the sweet memories you've given me.
We'll both find someone better.
Take good care of your mama. She's a very strong person but still needs you to love and care for her.
Someday we'll find ourselves silly to be crying over everything :')

Once your true love,
Malau.

Sunday, February 13, 2011 | 9:48 PM

19:00, 13February2011

Sunday

Is this really the end?

I once loved him so much.

I'm all mentally and physically shagged right now.

I don't know what to do.

I need you, I love you..

But if this continues, I will die from these sufferings.

I want a guy who will be patient with me.

I want a guy who loves me more than himself.

I want a guy to be my gentlemen.

I want a guy to give me shelter and protection.

Which one am I having right now?

It's easy for you to give advice to others.

It wont be as easy as you said when love comes to you.

Love really knocks you down. And now it's knocking me hard down and pulling me back up again.

Should I go on and believe to see a change, or just leave for the better?

I really don't know, I'm in a huge dilemma.

I've repeatedly asking myself these questions. From the start of it till the end of it.

They say love is not about changing each other.

So if both can't change each other, does it mean they have to break?

They love each other so much that they have to see each other everyday.

Does it means they can go on?

I'm going insane.

Holding on is not easy, leaving is also difficult.

What should I do?

I hate that I love you so.

I'm begging you for mercy,

Everytime I walk out the door, you'll pull me back.

But what's the point of pulling me back when you are going to make me walk out again?

You said you will change, and that this time it's for real.

Are these truth or lie?

Wednesday, December 15, 2010 | 11:24 PM

I've learnt some things through these hard times...

Love, is not about

just "I love you"

just the hugs

just the kisses

just the care

just the concern

just the passion

just the two person.

It's about the reality. And how it kills it all if you can't survive through this.

I don't know how much I can take either.

"Instead of blaming others, why not think about yourself"

I just wanted you to know.

I tried.

These tons of battles I've fought through.

It's really really not easy for me to go through.

Left a scar, it wouldn't heal.

I pretend, that the scars are not there as I continued to fight on.

That is just because I want you to know I love you but I don't want myself to get hurt again.

Every single thing I do is for you.

Every single tear I shed is my weakness, I know.

But every tear tells me to give up, but when I wipe these tears I'm pretending to be strong again.

I pray to God for you, I shed tears for you, I think for you, I care for you..

Everything is just because I love you so much, so deeply.

All I want is simple, peaceful days with you.

God, am I asking for too much?

Still I realise some things.

Often you think that you are currently having a hardest time of your life.

But as you go on with your life, hard times gets harder and harder and that's why adult say "I Eat salt more than you eat rice" to the youths.

It's indeed true.

I fear, what will happen in the future.

If I've got a chance, I wish that I will have simple loving peaceful days with him, my family and my friends.

My wish wasn't demanding, isn't it?

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